Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around one eye that lasts up to several hours.

About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest unusual treatments for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Pam Harper
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